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    Monday, February 8th, 2010
    7:16 am
    Ramping Up
    It’s been such a long time since I have taken the time to write down my thoughts on paper. I am not really sure where to start but I figured it wouldn’t be best to leap straight into the unknown and theoretical.

    I am at a point of indecisiveness in my life. As most readers know I have worked at my first big boy job for about 3 years now. Year 1 was awesome, new people, new sounds, new ideals, new teachers and a new challenge. Year 2 wasn’t that bad either, really tiring because I found out that the only new challenges coming my way were the ones I had to create for myself. Year 3 was the topper, I had to work on items and push for processes that I didn’t believe in but had to make it work which in turn compromised my ideals and values. I felt more then ever the fact that I was fighting a battle by myself, and while I had a very clear picture of how things should be and why they should be that way, everyday is a reminder that as long as you don’t have the resources, power, and support system needed to implement them dreamy thoughts of an ideal world stay just that.

    When something isn’t going right, and an answer isn’t available a person tends to find temporary time occupiers to put themself in a complacent state of mind. Most of us go straight to the source, alcohol. I certainly like to indulge myself. Some of us like to play online games that feed our OCD habits when it comes to RPG games. Many of these things can take us off the path we should be going and deter us from getting where we should be, where we need to be. It’s easier to accept and enjoy the temporary gain then to pursue something aggressively for long term interest.

    This is the impasse that I have reached. I always reflect on my life and my situation. My sister is an ever growing reminder as to how I should be thankful to have a job. She’s right but she’s also wrong. I am not very thankful for this part of my life, but I am thankful for all of the other things that have come with it. She always knew that when she graduated from college she wanted to work in the tallest building in downtown Baltimore, at the time that was Legg Mason. She got it, and pursued it aggressively and while the type of market we work in is very stressful she does genuinely enjoy what she does. I, on the other hand, needed something to do after college and certainly working at Safeway as a Dairy Department Manager was not my life ambition. The critical mistake I made was I accepted a position with a huge organization doing something I didn’t really care about. I care about it today because I get paid to care about it, not out of any genuine desire or interest.

    At the end of the day I haven’t figured it out yet. I talk about going to Graduate School for Philosophy. What if I end up not liking that, and then have to re-route again or just settle for a while because I don’t want to feel that my time was wasted. What if you never find it, and your whole life is spent trying to find your niche that never gets revealed. It worries me because the only thing that I genuinely enjoy doing that can provide large amounts of income is poker. But that obviously has it’s major risks that don’t require extensive details to identify them.

    Plato said the ideal individual is one who does what he is best at and never deviates from it. In an ideal society all individuals follow the same path, if you have the society and it’s the best that it can be then obviously the people living in the society fit the bill. Too bad he only had to clump all members of the society into 3 categories, because that would just be too easy...goddamn boy lover.

    Current Mood: contemplative
    Current Music: Dream Theatre--Panic Attack
    Wednesday, September 10th, 2008
    8:11 pm
    A Place to Rest My Head
    I have never been happier as I am today to be home. I miss Becky and I miss my friends; I miss my bed and good nights of sleep.

    I know I already said it once but it's good to be home.

    Current Mood: tired
    Current Music: Kiss--Detroit Rock City
    Tuesday, April 15th, 2008
    10:57 pm
    Ugh...
    My week starting from Sunday up until this point of the best and the worst.

    Drive to Atlantic City Sunday Morning. Decide that I want to be a thousand dollars up by 9 in the evening.

    Wake up the next morning slightly hungover but take a fast four mile walk down the boardwalk to maintain the exercise level.

    Drive home from Atlantic City to have a deer run slam into the driver's side of my vehicle. Attempt to opem my car door to no avail, my friend Chris has to get the door for me.

    Make it home and come across the same issue, I have to shoulder ram the door to open it from the inside and come in from the passnger side when I need to get inside the car.

    Drive to Becky's tonight for dinner. The commute is normally 35 minutes longs. It took me two and half hours. I have to get up ass crack early to drop my car off at the body shop to begin repairs. It will probably be in the shop for about 3 weeks.

    Looking forward to a slow-paced week just one time in my life...

    ...peace out peeps.

    Current Mood: cranky
    Current Music: Big Punisher-Off Wit His Head
    Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007
    10:49 pm
    Medical Ethics.
    http://www.cnn.com/2007/HEALTH/conditions/01/04/ashley.treatment.ap/index.html

    I have many thoughts concerning the case that I was sent discussing a young girl named Ashley and the recent procedures and surgeries she went through by her parents decision. I have many thoughts in different areas that go beyond ethics but are still related to ethics such as autonomy, freedom of choice, social roles and responsibilities, and individuality which very closely relates to autonomy.

    I don’t know where to start and I am going to do my best to not to get off topic. Parents have responsibilities and obligations to the children that they bring into this world to provide what they believe is the best and most comfortable situation based on the circumstances in which they live. The circumstances of course being income, debt, job status, residence et cetera. The best and most comfortable situation might vary from parent to parent in small detail but can be probably be admitted that most intelligent, good parents have the same foundation of beliefs concerning this. The biggest question with this case is are the parents justified in having these surgeries done to there daughter. And sadly, and this will probably come off as a cop out, I really can not answer that question. I am not a doctor and I am not familiar enough with her disabilities or the consequences of the surgeries that are being done. However, it is important to address both sides of the issue nonetheless even if not fully aware of the medical knowledge needed to evaluate the knitty gritty of the case.

    There are many problems that a slew of different people could state that stem from the parents decisions to go through with these drastic surgeries. Are the parents seriously looking out for the well-being of the child or are these surgeries just easier ways for the parents to deal with there disabled child? Does this really lead to a slippery-slope or a snowball type effect? How reliable and how much should we actually question the type of health-care we have access to and the tools and procedures that doctors have access to? A big one that the article does not address at is the status of handicapped and disabled people in our society, do they not have as much of right to freedom of choice and to pursue what makes him/her the happiest.

    In these types of cases it can be very difficult to evaluate what was occurring in the individuals heads. This case is certainly not the exception, where there are going to be two sides who make judgements based on there intuitions and how they interpret the information on hand. And we really do not have that much information on hand to make a solid decision either way, but in this case I am leaning towards the idea that the parents do have good intentions for there daughter. I know the procedures are drastic, and there will be things that this girl will never be able to experience, but so long as the consequences of not having her period, having her breasts removed or anything else that might have to be done outweighs the consequences of her having her period or possibly getting breast cancer and all the discomforts that go it then we have done the right thing. And anybody who knows me knows I hate to resolve an issue like this based on principles of utility but sadly this case is mostly a matter of utility. Categorical imperatives aren’t going to do any good in this case because they are so global it becomes difficult to associate those types of rules to something as specific as this. And as far as good character qualities go I believe that the parents have good intentions and are actually being brave in the sense that imagine how difficult it is to see your daughter go through all of this, I don’t care who you are any parent with a heart never wants to see there child go through a serious surgery, let alone several more on top of that. They have her well-being in consideration as well there own, and they are doing there best to still keep the child involved in all of the family activities.
    There are another group of people who say that the surgeries are drastic, and that the parents should accept there child for who she is and tough it out. Unless the medical procedure directly betters the patient then the procedure should be questioned in some degree. I don’t think it has been established that the treatment does not directly benefit her; I know it appears that the procedures also make the parents job a little bit easier but that seems a bit cold and counter-intuitive. I can’t imagine how this job can get any easier, and really at this point what I would tell these group of people that unless they actually have a handicapped child that they have to raise, then I can’t see how they can even begin to theorize what it is like. At this point I am going to reference contractualism, this is a principle that states that one should not make assertions about a situation unless they themselves have actually been in a situation and can accept the consequences of there actions in that situation. I guess it questions how these ethicist’ can really question the entire situation being that they have not been through it, but I suppose many people are not actually advocates of contractualism.

    The slippery slope argument holds some ground here but the fascinating part is that this case in my opinion is not a contributor of the slippery slope. I have read all too many cases of parents that have hormones injected into there child to help them grow more, and more and more people are concerned about aesthetics and there appearances in this world. And this makes procedures like hormone injections more readily available, and we have already seen that so many people abuse these procedures all for the wrong reasons. And I suppose the slippery slope problems relates more to the fact that the procedures and tools doctors and hospitals have available to them does not readily equip them to deal with situations like this. And situations like this aren’t just rare examples, I am sure that a lot of parents have to face these types of situations and many doctors honestly don’t know how to handle it. As far as parents stunting there child’s growth to make him/her easier to deal with does not make sense to me. I know parents always say that they grow up so fast and I wish you would be my baby forever, but I do believe that a parents happiness with there child while always there grows into full peek after seeing there son or daughter grow up to be this intelligent, successful individual. It’s probably idealistic to think this way, but I don’t think most parents want to solve there children’s problems and there own by keeping them trapped in childhood forever.

    The problem here is that the idea of what defines our actions being right or wrong is based on too many things; and while each of these things are an important part of defining what is right or wrong there have been some serious word twisting involved to make these things compatible with the amount of ever-growing questions concerning morality. Most agree that the consequences of our actions and the intentions involved when deciding a certain course of action is the heart and soul of defining what our morality is. I believe whole-heartedly however that we have to get a good grasp of what is involved when defining our intentions. Why a good person has good intentions or a bad or selfish person has intentions respective to the type of persona they have. These are our character values, and should be taken into serious consideration when discussing right or wrong actions, because our values are going to go hand-in-hand with our intentions. And it is important to discuss in great detail what defines our intentions, it has to go beyond the scope of character values. The idea of a character value is very open-ended, and we are at the point in our society where the ancient ideas of character values, while important in how we act in our society today is not enough to create an ethical theory that can apply to our modern world. The best way to wrap this up is to say that if categorical imperatives and consequences are important then understanding why we act in certain ways leads us to the actions in which the consequences then follow. If we understand what precedes these things then discussing the latter parts will be easier. It just so happens that character identity and what motivates an individual is far too complicated to go into detail here, I’ve always believed that the problem with most arguments dealing with philosophy are tunnel-visioned. We’re not really concerned with actually solving problems and looking towards the future, we’re looking to deal with the issues now and just “one-over” the other arguments. Specifically in the applied medical ethics world this is not sound, issues will constantly be arising with many situations being similar enough with only minute differences where the minutes differences could very well sway individuals from one type of mentality to another. The other big issue here is solving the problem at hand, we get so focused on the problem at hand that we forget to even think that the problem could have very well arisen from a past theory that has assumed to be accurate for so long. Surprisingly, while most readers can think of philosophers who made the big leaps of knowledge and tested more than what they could handle, most philosophers careers are started by a predecessors theories. There is some advantage to this type of mentality though, you certainly get closer to a more solid theory inch by inch, but there just reaches a peak point where nothing else can really be said until something revolutionary happens, and I’m not sure when the next occurrence will be...

    For those who are going to read this in it’s entirety, I am sorry but this was written over a two week period and hence jumps all over the place. More so than what’s even normal for me, but I hope you get something out of this and if anybody ever wants to discuss any of the issues at hand, feel free to get a hold of me...

    Current Mood: contemplative
    Current Music: Saves The Day-Banned From The Back Porch
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